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Vivien ♀ Twenty one (21) English Literature Major ✎ A Gleek ♬ I love you like a love song



Wednesday, May 30 20:04


Bon Voyage Soke May!!

Yunxuan just told me about how she niaoed ou about some new Viet Boyfriend.

Haha.

Er, but I think that is mean, so I shall not tease you on my blog.

See how nice I am?

I feel so bored; I just completed the GP task one.

I rock!!

Heng I'm not in Cave's class, who get to hand in damn late and are damn slack, luckily she set strict deadlines so I cannot procrastinate. :) Yay!

















I miss the spiral staircase.
















And the foyer.
And the stairs.
And of course the wall before it crashed.
I also really miss the uniform. The nice metal buttons and the long skirt which will never let you zao geng. And of course, I miss those good ole' days.
Aww.

Tuesday, May 29 23:06


The term "farming" covers the wide spectum of agricultrial practices. On one end of the spectum is the subsistence farmer, who farms a small area with limited resource inputs, and produces only enough food to meet the needs of his/her family. At the other end is commercial intensive agriculture, including industrial agriculture. Such farming involves large fields and/or numbers of animals, large resource inputs (pesticides, fertilizers, etc.), and a high level of mechanization. These operations generally attempt to maximize financial income from grain, produce, or livestock. well i like men. and im damn proud of it. and i am a man:)

Something Soke May found from Wikipedia.

See, GP spices up our lives!!

Did you miss it??

The term "farming" covers the wide spectum of agricultrial practices. On one end of the spectum is the subsistence farmer, who farms a small area with limited resource inputs, and produces only enough food to meet the needs of his/her family. At the other end is commercial intensive agriculture, including industrial agriculture. Such farming involves large fields and/or numbers of animals, large resource inputs (pesticides, fertilizers, etc.), and a high level of mechanization. These operations generally attempt to maximize financial income from grain, produce, or livestock. well i like men. and im damn proud of it. and i am a man:)

See? What a weird thing man. All homo.
Sorry, late nights don't make me too sane. For the record, its 11:11p.m. now!
How cool is that?

21:38


GP IS SO BLEEDING FUN!

Not.

The deadline is so tight, TOMORROW?!?!

This time she's just being unreasonable.

And it is so uncanny that we meet her like everywhere. Brr. Scary.

But now, I must focus on my task of planning an essay about tourism and all that. Yes, it is oh-so-important.

2 of my messanger buddies (whatever) are lamenting to me about how GP sucks. TO THE CORE.

Okay, it's a gross exaggeration. BUT.

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This June Holiday is proving to be drier by the minute. It is so darn boring! There is simply nothing to do besides sitting around and snacking on tidbits at home, no, not helping with my weight.

Speaking of weight, Chen Liping has succumbed to the societal construct of a woman and had gone for a slimming course. She is such a loser! And haha, that was a pun, see, she lost weight. Yeah? Yeah?

Okay, my life has gotten so mundane that I am commenting on local celebrities. Oh my god. That is so sad.

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Shit.
I am driving my self mad. How? I don't want to do GP. It sucks so badly.

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It's the June Holidays!! Can we go out? Like, in a biggg group like how we used to?
Yeah, used to being before the darned holidays.

And one more thing to grouse about.

THE WEATHER IS SO BLEEDING HOT! I AM POSITIVELY BAKING HERE.

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Okay, ta, back to GP. -_-. The bane of life man.

Thursday, May 24 19:19


I did not have a VOB yesterday, it was a gross exaggeration.

In sooth I know not why I am so sad (or something like that).

Let me count the ways.

1. Literature
Yes, lit is nice now, but once the new term starts, it's like.. Yeah, you get the idea, I am so not thrilled. Something along the lines of falling from Utopia to Dystopia. :(

2. I am in 5A
Nothing personal, we are all lovely people, but there is so much grade disparity and inequality it is mildly obscene. No, seriously, I belong in the marginalised section of the class. I belong in a class where all the lazy losers congregate. 5L or something, one student. :(

3. Everyone hates 5A
We get blamed for everything. Shan1 Dong4's departure from 5D, Koh's abandonment of 5C, Soh's leaving of 5E. Come on! It isn't convincing. What, are you going to blame us for global warming next? It's not like we are all getting 'A's for everything and making the teachers worship us. Like, hello, marginalised person speaking here. :(

4. GP Holiday assignment
I hate GP. Well, at least next term we have a new teacher. But still. GP :(

5. Last Day of school tomorrow
I so don't want te holidays to come. Okay, sleep is nice, but there is homework. And CCA and trips and all that taking up the rest of the holiday. It seems that it is not possible to have a "restful" holiday. :(

6. Post-VOB
Yeah, maybe it was yesterday's OB's aftermath. I almost had an OB today, when they where effing blaming 5A for all their misfortunes. Luckily I chased up to Krystal and Jiayin where their calm temperaments blew away my excess steam. I emo-ed the way home because I felt like it. It's not like anyone noticed anyway. :(

7. PMS
Maybe? I hope it's now, not during Yunnan trip. :(

8. PW
PW sucks, need I elaborate? :(

9. The canteen food is boring
Duh, after 4 years? I get no joy in eating canteen food now. :(

10. I am darn broke
I am darn broke. :(

11. My blog is half-dead.
Give it a few more kicks and the engine may just sputter and die. And my tagboard is stagnant too. :(

12. __________
It is like the older you get, the more __________ things are. You start noticing ugly things, like how the bubble tea shop auntie is so snarly and bushuang and how Singaporeans like to complain so much. Like when I was in the MRT, there was this group of aunties and they were complaining how people do not give up their seats for them. Hello, you all so act hip, dress until like 40+ de people, where shades, put on thick make-up and dye your hair shades of lurid red somemore expect people to give up their seats for you. Dress your part first lar.
Sorry, I know I AP, I am just so pissed at how trivial people are. Like me, making a fuss out of nothing. :(

13. We are so tied down
I hate technology. I am miffed with yahoo groups. Why are we so connected? Why is it so easy to contact people? Can we ever be alone, somewhere where no one can get to us? I am sick of this ultra-convenient communication system we have. It's like you cannot ever escape something.
I want to get a new life and go somewhere nobody can contact me or bug me with stuff (like homework) and where I can be all alone. Somewhere where no one knows me. Just for a few days, it is fine with me. :(

14. I don't see the meaning in life on this world
Why are we here? Do we play a part on earth, or are we sent here to destroy the earth and humankind? We do so many things, but when you try to search deeper into it, find a meaning to the things we do, we are left with a blank. Like, Ionic Equilibrium, are we going to, in anytime of our lives, actually find the Ka of an acid for any reason other than for exam purposes? :(

15. I don't know why
I feel so down but I don't know why. :(

But no, I must not wallow in my self pity. Can someone cheer me up? I really need something to laugh about.

Yes, I know I have a knack for making people laugh with my humorous satires and great essays (ha.), but I am not a self-cheering-up kind of a person. Gah.



Sorry if this post was crap.

Monday, May 21 18:01


I am so, so glad that there isn't Maths Tutorial tomorrow, which means I don't have to do the Inqualities Tutorial. However, there is Chemistry tut tomorrow!!

Damn it. I haven't touched the Ionic Equilibrium tut yet leh.

Then there's the GPP Draft which is due tomorrow, which is barely done, and, besides that, the blister on my toe has burst, again.

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Like Koh Yun Xuan, I do not see the point of PW. Like, you plan, plan, plan, think of great ideas, be enthu (maybe) about some big event, and in the end, you do not get anything done. It's like zhi3 shang4 tan2 bing1, lor, all those cool ideas being generated, then suddenly, it's all over. I think it would be so much cooler to really organise that lor, at least you get evidence that you really did something.

:( PW makes me emo.

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I feel more and more emo each passing day, I really dread the next semester.

No, common test is small fry (that is if you are already convinced that you will fail it and decided not to care), the event I dread the most is...

AhPAT's hostile takeover of the Literature Lessons!!!

Do I need to elaborate?

Can't you already feel the emanating vibe of horror and despair?

And it's kind of twistedly ironic that we are doing the book Brave New World. Brrr.

And it's really sad that I can no longer do last minute essays. I have to do them, shockingly, before the deadline, no more on the day itself. :( No procrastination makes me emo.

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Oh, of course, I am worried about next term's common test, I am afraid of hard work. In fact, I am afraid of work of any kind, because I need validation to show that I really worked for something, like, if I study for an exam, I expect satisfactory results, not a shit result. So I don't like to work hard because I will be sad if I didn't do well. So I don't work at all (okay, maybe a bit), so that if I do not do well I will not feel so sad. They all say you reap what you sow, but I am afraid that even if I sow(?) a lot, I will not get the results. So I don't sow(?). So my results are like, you know, _________,but at least I don't feel emo.
Okay, bad analogy and a worse excuse for not working hard. Man, my thinking's screwed.
:( Hard work/work makes me emo.

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Wahlau, sian, I have nothing to blog about again. Nothing interesting is happening, what is wrong with our utterly mundane lives?

The only interesting thing I can think of is that I drank Whatever yesterday. Seriously, it is a smart gimmick, naming the drinks Whatever and Anything, so next time you ask "What you want to drink?" and the person replies "Anything.", you really do know what to buy for the person.

Or, if you are racking your brains about buying a perfect gift and when you ask the person what he/she wants and he/she replies in an ambiguous way "Whatever you buy is good enough for me.", you can buy him/her a can of Whatever and still not be in the wrong.

Cool, yeah?

Okay, not, but since our lives are so boring...
:( Boredom makes me emo
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So, I shall tell you about how I met Choo Weilin.

We met in Sec2 Level camp. I remember her as the bad-haired girl with the pissed-off face. She remembers me, and claims that I left an impression because I was the quiet girl with the bushuang look who had her period during camp.

Remember that "Boredom makes me emo"? The Sec2 camp was boring, there was like no one from my class then, and I was like Wahlau, what a blah group. Okay lar, I was just AP.

Like how I used to hate choir. Totally. It is because, "Boredom makes me emo", and AP. So, you should know better than to have me in a boring situation.

Yar, the above paragraph was pretty pointless. I am too bored, and I don't feel like doing Chem now (or ever, but that's beside the point), recall how "Hard work/work makes me emo"?

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Okay lar, okay lar, I admit, this whole entry is a giant excuse for my life.

My life is so _______.

:( I am so emo.

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Okay!! No more dumb emo flashes like this, I am not some menopausal auntie, I must stay positive!

Thus, I shall bid you adieu and do my homework now! (Maybe)

Sunday, May 20 19:41



If anyone of you, for some really screwed up reason, would like to find out more about the policies the Singapore Government came up with to ease traffic congestion, visit http://www.lta.gov.sg/motoring_matters/index_motoring_erp.htm. I'm sure you will find it interesting.
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I'm in a post-high mood now.
How can anyone in such a mood be bothered to research on the various blahblah policies Singapore has?

Even if they were like live-saving or anything, who cares????
And it's not like it is a great deal of fun to actually find out the pros and cons of these policies.

GET A LIFE!!

So anyway, went for the Daffodil Day pin selling thing today. It was not bad lar, I was at the same area as Koh. I shall not comment on how some Singaporeans are totally rude and will treat you like you were invisible (no bad invisible jokes please) or as if you were some scum on their shoe. And I shall not speak of how some posers and some act-glam-not-glam women totally do not live up to their image. And I shall not mention of how even if some people dress like rich tai-tais and/or(if they are weird unisex people) affluent businessmen and shop at LV, Gucci, yadayada, they do not donate. All I can say is, do take pity and at least donate twenty cents to flag day sellers, unless they are those fake-os selling those fake-o pens and showing those fake-o times new roman "certificates" of phoney charities you have never heard of. I mean, those scammers suck leh, because of them, the real flag sellers get shunned lor.
Get and job lar you good-for-nothing scammers!!
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But anyway, I must say, the Krystal-Jiayin-Linette Birthday Bash was not a failure. It was not bad lah, credits to main organiser Koh Yun Xuan, and the subs like Pung, XM and all those. But the main one was Koh, remember har, got complains go tell her, don't bother the subs.

Kidding, Koh, don't post more unglam pics of me hor.

Seriously, it was not bad lar.









This cake looks so innocent and happy right?

Actually, it is a monster, i tell you, a monster!!

You see, after eating a slice each, we felt fine and dandy. But then, there were 3 slices left. So, to finish them off to prevent food wastage, we played zhong1 ji2 mi4 ma3 to see who got to eat a second piece. Oh, by the way, we were bloody full by then. So anyway, guess who got to eat a second serving? ME. (And Xu Mei and Wen Qian)

And so we had to suffer the unique and cruel punishment that is cake eating. It is no fun, really, especially if you are already darn full and if the cake was a monster in disguise. It was extremely tough to chew and swallow and had the texture of a hard, saturated sponge. Okay, okay, the cake was alright, but really, 2 slices wasn't.

Not that I blame the organisers, the rest of the day was not bad.
Apart from the fact that Bi Wen and SokeMay had to leave early, it was quite smooth going.

And all the impromtu-ness was okay too.

Kudos to the organisers, although I must say, my planning was ahem, better!!

Okay, sorry, joking.
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Okay, Cecilia, I will listen to you and cut down on my calorie intake next week. No lar, actually, I'm broke, I totally spent all of my next week's allowance today. :(

SAD.

Yar, so, see you tomorrow, I shall continue to work on my stupid Econs project. And also my blah Maths tutorials. And also the sian Chem Questions.
Yes, I am so dead.

We are happy people!

Friday, May 18 19:30


Happy Birthday to Jiayin!

Not that she will read this, but.

So anyway, she's seventeen, and already she has had her first JOB.

No, she did not start working at McDonald's or some other fast food/coffee chain, no, Zheng Jiayin had her very.first. Jiayin OutBurst!!!

We are proud of her.

Although technically, we do not know the true nature of this outburst. Since Pung Soke May had forgotten to tell us the details.

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But anyway, OBs are all the rage nowadays (Pun intended), emo? Emo is so yesterday.

And it all started with hip new trendsetter Koh Yun Xuan.

I guess you all know the history of OBs, so I shall not bore you with the details.

But you should try it! OB-ers have reported that OBs are the most satisfying things to do in the world. The moment the little spark goes of in that empty space in you, you just feel like you are a firework on display, it is so majestic and totally beautiful.

Not that I have ever had a VOB. I am still waiting for one to come, but I guess I am too demure and gentle for it. Ahem.

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Oh anyway, blogger has this new feature which autosaves your entries as drafts whenever you stop typing.

Like, cool.

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By the way, the SAP-py people are flying of on Monday. Isn't it weird how none of the people in my little social group are SAPS (SAP Scholars)? Oh well, I shall not dwell on it too much. But it is kinda strange.

Oh yar, in CSC today, the instructor (or something) guy was hinting to us that there may be ZOMGSANDFLIESZOMG in Yunnan!!

That will mean that even if my condition (half-rotten legs) gets better, I will still end up with still-rotten legs after the trip! At this rate of decay, I wonder if the reaction is second-order or something.

Darn.

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I'm so bored..
I'm supposed to meet PXM online tonight to discuss some stoopid Economics Presentation. Wah Lao. Very sian one lor. Very very.

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Okay lar, I'm going to take a quick 5 minutes nap and then go bloghop!!

Yar, I am slack.

Wednesday, May 16 21:00


And so this is officially my new blog.

Fresh out of the oven, off the rack.

So.

I have decided that one little piece of wood (haha. Not funny hor?) isn't enough to make me give up my love for blogging and making sophisticated(!) comments on others.

Right now, I am having a discussion on my PW topic. PW is a fun and interactive way to learn skills we would need in the future! It is simply engaging. And my group is not bad, even though there are 3 scholars, which means next week will be plenty lonely..

But it's alright, WE WILL STRIVE ON!

I am really running short of blogging topics.

Okay, okay, I shall dredge out some deep, meaningful thoughts now.

It is such a nice feeling to blog again, I hope this new-ish blog will signify the start of something great. Like, no scammers. And, I have decided to put all the unhappy past behind me and start afresh! And that means you, Pung Soke May, has been mercifully pardoned this time. But I tell you if you do it again arh, tsktsktsk, YOU WATCH OUT.
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Those eyes are WATCHING.

Watching.

Watching.

Okay, get the hint, you lousy piece of driftwood?

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www.we-are-invisible.blogspot.com, do rest in peace.

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Anyway, Yunxuan, Youbao and a handful of my fellow good blogger pals have moved. That goes to show my large influence yeah?

Okay, I am about done today. Oh no, there's the GP comprehension thing tomorrow, I don't compehend it, and then we get back Maths Test!! I hope I don't drag the class total percentage down again, like in Chemistry... I am so depressed, boohoohoo, I will now go slash my stupid wrists which made me write stoopid things.

Fine, not to that degree, but really, darn.

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But sad things aside, pop the champagne, it's the birth of a brand new, spanking clean (spanking clean? Is there such a phrase?) blog! Weeeee!!!!

(O.O) Whatever that is.



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