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Vivien ♀ Twenty one (21) English Literature Major ✎ A Gleek ♬ I love you like a love song


Goats and...
Tuesday, September 30 21:29


Okay, so yesterday did not go as planned. Because I did not plan. Much.

So it rained. And we played Bridge on the Bridge. o_o But not frisbee because it would have been mistaken as an/a (?) UFO.

The cake was nice, Strawberry cheesecake! :D

But of course, everyone knows the main highlight of our outing isn't bridge, or Uno, or the cake. In fact, the highlight wasn't even on us, but our close cousins (?), some ultra friendly picnic Monkey pals (c)! I got a shot of the scavenging thief.
For those who haven't had the fortune to meet the monkeys, one of them hopped/skipped down to our food when we were playing Bridge/Uno, and stole an unopened bag of Doritos! Like, UNOPENED! Then, it/he ripped open the packaging and it started raining chips.

Aww, doesn't he look so sweet and innocent there? But you know, after yesterday, I think I am scarred for life, and will always have an irrational fear of monkeys. Because I swear, the head honcho monkey gave off this air of menace which was sinister and foreboding. I mean, we were trying to get near the monkey to clear up the plastic packaging as it wasn't/isn't organic. I mean, hey, we went in peace, but did the monkeys listen to our peaceful negotiations? Noo.. The head monkey chionged at us, and we, a bunch of fully grown humans actually shrieked and ran at record speeds (at least Soke May did).

Oh, and the worst part was, we had to clean up after the monkeys. So it's not poop or anything like that, but to see the poor chips get discarded by the monkeys, and having to pick them up and throw them away is not as fun as it sounds.
But you know what? It was one of the wackiest outings we ever had, and it was fun in a screwed up sorta way. Um, seriously, haha. After that some of the people with unsore feet went for a trek. I would have went, but the fake birks thing I wore were like killing me. Er, so anyway, the rest of us but Jiamin went to try out heels. Er, call me a noob, but I cannot walk in heels. Unless they are the lousy 5 cm type, which are not as glam.
I am destined to be a birk/flip-flops/sneakers/flats (I don't own any, which is like, duh) kinda girl. Aww. Okay, that sounded so girly. Ew.
Oh anyway, Prelims were, er, anything you like to call it, haha. I am just glad that I didn't flunk Chem despite slacking so much. Actually I am so bored i don't feel anxiety/stress.
Oh no, I have been hit by a bout of Hippie-ism! I need to get my life back on the study track. *Goes into a trance, "Peace, little people."*
Oh, wait. Track. I need to
1. STUDY FOR SATs
2. APPLY FOR US UNI
3. PHOTOCOPY UNI APP STUFF T_T
4. GIVE STUFF TO TEACHERS FOR REF
5. FREAK OUT AND BE CURED OF (FROM?) HIPPIE-ISM
I need a sorta structure thing. I am going way off track, and spinning out of control! And no, I'm not alluding to F1.
Ahh I am so lost. Metaphorically. Okay, ciao.

Sunday, September 28 00:56


1. Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2. Italicize those you intend to read.
3. Underline the books you LOVE.
4. Strike out the books you have no intention of ever reading, or were forced to read at school and hated.


1. Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen
2. The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien (Damn I can't believe I'm still stuck in the middle The Two Towers. No pun intended. If you got it. D: )
3. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4. Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5. To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6. The Bible (Well. It is the world's most printed book. Right?)
7. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8. Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell (Actually I flipped through it. But whatever!)
9. His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10. Great Expectations - Charles Dickens (I read this in Sec2 for English. I think. Miss Havisham was freaky.)
11. Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12. Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13. Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14. Complete Works of Shakespeare
15. Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16. The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien (I loved it :D Because the narrator was more humorous than the one in LOTR)
17. Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18. Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19. The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20. Middlemarch - George Eliot
21. Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22. The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23. Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24. War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy (er. Sounds interesting. No, actually it sounds horribly dry.)
25. The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams (I bought one, stuffed it somewhere, and probably will come across it one day and try reading it.)
26. Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27. Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky (This again sounds like a freaky book. And I will probably fall asleep reading it. But oh well.)
28. Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck (Grapes! Er.)
29. Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll (It's one of those books which leave you going "Huh." But nice.)
30. The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame (I know, I know, it's a kids book..)
31. Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy (Again, another book I will die reading, I think.)
32. David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33. Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis (Borrowed the Magician's Nephew and never read it.. T_T)
34. Emma - Jane Austen
35. Persuasion - Jane Austen
36. The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis (See 33.)
37. The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini (Borrowed it, forgot to read it, probably will want to read it.)
38. Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39. Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40. Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41. Animal Farm - George Orwell (Who can forget the dumbo ribbon loving horse? Or the poor Boxer. Sob)
42. The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43. One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44. A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45. The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46. Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47. Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48. The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood (Actually it isn't that bad. I guess.)
49. Lord of the Flies - William Golding (NO WAY. I got bored to tears by the first chapter. I mean, schoolboys on an island isn't my sort of story. Sorry.)
50. Atonement - Ian McEwan
51. Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52. Dune - Frank Herbert
53. Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54. Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55. A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56. The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57. A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58. Brave New World - Aldous Huxley (I don't hate it, oddly enough.)
59. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon (It was kinda weird.)
60. Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61. Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck (I don't know what the heck this book is about. Oh, wait, it probably is about men and mice. I think. Sounds cute. Probably not.)
62. Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov (I've been looking for it in libraries, in vain.)
63. The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64. The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65. Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66. On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67. Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68. Bridget Jones’ Diary - Helen Fielding
69. Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70. Moby Dick - Herman Melville (Hunting whales. Hmm.)
71. Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens (I'll probably watch the musical, haha)
72. Dracula - Bram Stoker (Okay, I lie, I borrowed it then flipped through, stopping at only the interesting parts. Like blood taking and all that. Heh.)
73. The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74. Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75. Ulysses - James Joyce
76. The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77. Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78. Germinal - Emile Zola
79. Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80. Possession - AS Byatt
81. A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens (Nice. Especially when it's Christmas and you want to feel nice and fuzzy.)
82. Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83. The Color Purple - Alice Walker (I have no idea. But, purple!)
84. The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85. Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86. A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87. Charlotte’s Web - EB White (I have no childhood, I swear.)
88. The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom (:D)
89. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90. The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton (I am so gay.)
91. Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92. The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery (To be honest I read it eons ago, and I undrstood nuts.)
93. The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94. Watership Down - Richard Adams
95. A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96. A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97. The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98. Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl (Roald Dahl is <3)
100. Les Miserables - Victor Hugo


I can't believe I just filched this off Vina's blog. That is how desperate I am for something to do. I mean, I wouldn't mind doing some "10000 things to do before you die" meme (or watcha-callits). I'm going insane (cue Disturbia) at home. Actually I feel depressed and empty since Prelims are over, and I have nothing much to do. Gawd help me!

Facebook is very quickly losing its sudden found appeal. To me, at least. And I'm so not in the mood to study for SAT Subject Tests. Bahhh.

I just killed a fly. O_O Eww gross. I mean, I think it flew halfway, had a heart attack, and died. So it fell onto the ground, and I squished it. Shit I feel guilty T_T Because I squished a struggling bug.

Sigh. I need to get off my ass and do something. I feel so lazy now I think I would be sent directly to hell due to excess sloth. Although hell may not be as bad as we think, according to the play Don Juan in Hell by Shaw.

Sorry, couldn't help it, I am so incoherent now. :S

Okay. Bye. T_T (That's me, bored to tears.)

Saturday, September 27 01:31


Your Mind is Purple
Of all the mind types, yours is the most idealistic.
You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.
Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.
What Color Is Your Mind?




You Are 20% Girly
Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world.
And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.
How Girly Are You?


Haha, that was cool.

You Are 48% Slacker
You are a bit of a slacker - though you can pull it together and live a somewhat normal life.
If you're young, this is probably phase you'll outgrow. And if you're already grown up, you need to get off the couch a bit more!
Are You a Slacker?


Nah, that is just inaccurate, haha. I should be at least 100%, :D


You Are 32% Sociopath
From time to time, you may be a bit troubled and a bit too charming for your own good.
It's likely that you're not a sociopath... just quite smart and a bit out of the mainstream!
Are You A Sociopath?


Aww, I wanted to be more psycho. Oh well.


You Are Elmo
Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do!

You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing.

You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you.

How you life your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!"
The Sesame Street Personality Quiz


Elmo! Whoots. Although how I am like him I don't know.


You Are a Chocolate Cheesecake
Rich and greedy, you're attracted to the dark side of life.
Nothing ever quite satisfies your inner beast. And somehow, people find that sexy.
What Kind of Cheesecake Are You?


OMG CHOC CHEESECAKE :D:D:D

You Are Mustard
Your personality is strong and distinctive. You are beyond quirky.
You can stand alone in the world well. You are a strong individual.
You sometimes work well with others, as long as there aren't any other strong personalities involved.

Your taste in food tends to be simple yet high quality.
You can really get into a perfectly prepared sandwich or simple fresh salad.
You get along best with ketchup and barbeque sauce personalities. Get you with a salsa personality, and things might become downright nasty!
What Condiment Are You?


I like mustard, there's this zingy bite and it's yummy. In a weird way.

The Movie Of Your Life Is An Indie Flick
You do things your own way - and it's made for colorful times.
Your life hasn't turned out how anyone expected, thank goodness!

Your best movie matches: Clerks, Garden State, Napoleon Dynamite
If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?


Er..

What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.

You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities.

You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think.

Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.
Inside the Room of Your Soul


Your Life Is Worth...
$1,089,000
How Much Is Your Life Worth?


If I sell my life I would be a millionaire. Oh, interesting thing is, if you say that you're not a virgin, your value drops by 200k, lol.

You Are a Werewolf
You're unpredictable, moody, and downright freaky.
You seem sweet and harmless, until you snap. Then you're a total monster.
Very few people can predict if you're going to be Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde.
But for you, all your transformations seem perfectly natural.

Your greatest power: Your ability to tap into nature

Your greatest weakness: Lack of self control

You play well with: Vampires
What Kind of Monster Are You?


Nice. Always thought werewolves were cool, except vampires are cooler, of course.

Oh my ____, it's like, 3 am. I am so bored that I actually bothereed to do those quiz thingies. Ahh I need a life.

Friday, September 26 23:15


I am so freakin' bored I'm going to cry soon. I guess I should give up trying to have a life and go study for SATs lar. T_T

Anyway, I'm sorta planning the Monday outing thing now, because Phua cannot take the stress of being a planner, haha. So.. I am so no sure where the hell the Henderson Bridge is, and even googling doesn't help much, all the results are about how to get the best shot of the waves and stuff, and no one even bothers telling people how to get there in the first place. Like O_O

So the da4 gai4 thing is afternoon-ish at Vivocity, and each person bring drinks/chips (fattening but whatever lar), then we just go there to, er, play bridge? And do other brainless stuff, need suggestions though!

And Pung coins the term, "Bridge on the bridge", which is, er, nothing short of brilliant, haha.

So I'll do some more planning tomorrow, *planning is ma life now*, then I'll ask you all again lar.

So hungry.

Okay, once again, I have run out of bloggable stuff. Gosh. I NEED A LIFE! :D

Ciao.

Wednesday, September 24 21:51


HEY HEY HEY!

PRELIMS ARE FREAKIN' OVER! (Which means that A's are coming..)

ANYWAY, I can't wait for the return of my life. I hope my life returns, whatever my life was before prelims came.

So anyway, there are about three types of no-lifers, from an observation a few of us made after Chem MCQ:

1. NO-lifer, also known as mummy's girl.
Common traits include going home in mummy's car after the end of a paper. Aww

2. No-lifer-ish, also known as loiterers.
Often seen walking aimlessly with an ice-cream cone in hand.

3. Flower-boys lovers
Okay, these people are probably the ones with the most life, and since Koh will kill me if I even mention bad/homo thing about the show/movie, I shall hold my peace. :D

Ack. I have nothing to blog about anymore lehhhh. Sigh. Okay, seeya later peeps.

Monday, September 22 00:29


Greed:Medium
Gluttony:Low
Wrath:Very Low
Sloth:High
Envy:Medium
Lust:Very Low
Pride:Very Low



Discover Your Sins - Click Here


This is like the nth time I have done that quiz, and it's probably the most accurate one, I think. Because sometimes I feel bored then I answer weirdly, like check all the boxes, then my sins would be super high for all.

But maybe the quiz works differently at different times. I mean, when you are pumped full of hormones of course your wrath and lust will be super high, right? Okay, I don't take bio, but still.

Shall go sleep now I guess. SO BORED.


Sunday, September 21 21:05


These few days have been pure torture. Bored, hot, nothing to freaking do. Okay, I actually do need to read the Literature texts, but ack. So I was stoning at home, and by stoning I mean languishing around, mop(e?)ing around, whining about how I had nothing to do, visiting fb and spending hours looking at random stuff and doing likeness quizzes (damn), and of course, sleeping.

Ugh. I am such a bloody sloth! I've been spending more time on the bed then a bed bug (okay, lousy comparison... Oh, a pun :D), and I think I'm actually more slack than before the Prelims. What the heck is wrong with me man?

And I was trying to change my blogskin when the thing just kinda screwed up so I wasted my time basically doing nonconstructive stuff. Ahh I suck. BAD.

I want to order class photos leh!! But I still haven't seen them, except on fb, which isn't the same mah. Oh, and btw, Urbandictionary is a nice place to go to if you're like uber bored, and I found this word, "spexy", like specs+sexy, ala "This nerd is so spexy". Haha. Then there was this word, "dipshit", and one definition was like "see also, Bush, George W", and when you click on that link, you get directed to another page which defines him as "A totally useless human being who turns to shit every blessed thing that he touches."

Nice.

*From the above passage, readers can see the extreme case of boredom, and the speaker is obviously driven to desperate measures to pass time. This allows the readers to feel sympathy (my foot) for the speaker, as the author gives the speaker a tone of exhilaration which is obviously misplaced.*

Meow. Okay, here's some ear-candy/eye-candy (?) for you people.



I kissed a girl by Katy Perry.

Wednesday, September 17 21:43


Slacked again today. And I am once again shocked by my good Chemistry knowledge. You know how everyone totally got the first question, the ionic radius thing? Well, they either got it or left it blank right, but I was despo enough to attempt it in the last five minutes.

So I scribbled "Volatility of oxides" on the y-axis. And went on the explain a big chunk on how Na and the stuff were ionic, blah blah. Blah. Damn.

I was watching Invader Zim on Nickelodeon, and man was it disturbing. I mean, the graphics were not the cutie type or nice friendly colourful type you find in most Nick cartoons, and the story plots were like O_O. But it's funny in an absolutely morbid/creepy way. And the characters are so cute-ish that you forget all the weird-ass stuff anyway.

But Econs is tomorrow so what am I doing here?

Oh, wait, I just answered that question, I'm here 'cos econs is tomorrow, haha. I've been blogging a lot recently, to thin air. Must be prelims, I am using the blog to channel my desires of having a life. Okay, I don't make sense.

Ahh okay. I shall attempt to study Econs. Or just blow off everything till tomorrow. And seeing how I love blowing things off till the last minute... Darn.

Oh, oh, I had this weird dream this afternoon, must be too traumatised by the stupid volatility thing. I dreamt that somehow all the DHP people ended up in the same JC/University place, called Imperial JC (don't ask me), and then it was pouring (even though in reality the room was hot like dunno what), and then this series of weird and random stuff just happened. So when I woke up I was like, "Huh. Whaa.."

Okay, seriously I have to quit this habit of internetting (whatever). I am such an idiot. Poo.

Tuesday, September 16 17:37


Okay, I am officially bored to tears by the very thought of having to study Chem again. Although I didn't actually study much for Paper III, but still. And then there's the prospect of studying for Economics, which is infinitely worse than studying for Chemistry. Okay, it's not that bad.

Anyway I was flipping through Thermochem, and Hess' Law states that the enthalpy change accompanying a chemical reaction is the same regardless of the route by which the chemical change occurs, provided the initial and final conditions are the same.

Well, according to me, Hess' Law states that the energy absorbed or released during a reaction is equal to that of the sum of the energy change of the reactions which lead up to that one final reaction. Or something along those incoherent lines. My aptitude for Chemistry just shocks me sometimes, haha.

I went to google the Sylvia Plath poem and guess what? It was not written originally in English but in Polish instead. Well, at least that's what one webste said, and people's comments were generally about her death wish and longing to be part of the earth so that trees can get nutrients from her dead body. Er. Okay. Then the identity poem is a bit more ulu, so I didn't bother looking too hard for it. Actually I don't really care about finding out so much about those poems, except I am reluctant to study for Chem, so...

What else to blog about to stall for time (to NOT study chem)..

Gah, nothing.

My life is officially sad, pfft.

PRELIMS PRELIMS PRELIMS! I'm like, so over you. Now get out!

Okay, personification of Prelims, bad sign. I need a life, now!

Saturday, September 13 21:04


I am so sick of Organic that I have even started to think that perhaps Physical is the best form of Chemistry.

I am also addicted to stuff like youtube and mucking around, slacking. I am not addicted to studying. Which is just the addiction I need. Darn.

But I cannot wait for Prelims to be over, so that I can get a life!! Which would, of course, be shortlived, but still. A life is a life is a life. Whatever that means.

I am so bored of, er, everything!!!

I think I'll go mad during the A level studying time. OM_ OM_!!!

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Oh, anyway, I don't think I'm going for DSTA bah. Because seriously. Me + science = DIE, and Me + DSTA = destruction and doom, haha.

Back to Chem, I think.

Wednesday, September 10 21:24


Gah. I hate studying for Maths. Again.

"For another, laughter in Pride and Prejudice is closely linked to the sexual tensions among the different characters."

Er, seriously, I cannot link anything in P&P to sexual tension, whatever that means. And I slept the entire day away, because I was entirely killed by the 3 hour paper. I can't believe there's another three hour paper tomorrow!!!

Blah. My brain is so dead I cannot think of anything to blog about. And why am I wasting time online when I could be enjoying decent time with graphs?

<3 GRAPHS!!

Okay, I'm a bit incoherent now. Even though I slept for the whole day!

Oh, oh, anyone wants to go for the DSTA Open House? Even though my science sucks and they probably wouldn't give me a scolarship and I cannot imagine helping defend Singapore (because with my abysmal organisational skills and insight, I would probably leak out some confidential secret and ruin the country).

So anyway, GOOD LUCK FOR TOMORROW!! :D

Monday, September 8 18:45


Gah. I think I screwed up the GP essay, haha.

Because all I could think about what relieving the pain in my tummy. I was like:
"Hmm, so why is the world unhappy...OMFGZZZ I NEED TO USE THE BLOODY TOILET!!!"

Then after a few minutes there would be another wave of tummyache, then my essay plan was like incomplete because my heart and mind were on other more significant things (like my imminent diarrhea). And I sounded freaking incoherent in the essay, haha. Like I was writing about appreciating life's simple pleasures, such as "reading a ridiculously absurd piece of writing", alluding to my essay, that is. But I crossed that out lar. A bit humji to write those kinda stuff. Now, that is.

But anyway, who cares about GP? Okay, actually I do care a bit, but still..

Maths!

Wednesday, September 3 18:36


Um, does anyone have the Integration Revision Excercise answers? ZZZ. I was, er, kinda lazy and didn't write them down and now I am sad. D:

My revision isn't going too well. How?? I feel like I'm talking to myself here. Weird.


Better post a picture of Mrs Chan to spur me on for Maths revision, lol. Because right now I'm only starting differentiation and integration, and everyone knows hell happens only at Complex Numbers and Vectors. OM_ I'm so screwed.
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I can do it! You can do it! We can do it!! WE CAN!! :D
Sorry, a bit hysterical.



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